Sunday, bloody Sunday.

I totally wanted to tell you about the fun night I had last night. But right now I have a little best friend troubles.
Unfortunately ): I think the both of us don't dare to tell each other how we feel about certain things... So at the moment, at least for me, frustrations have piled up and instead of talking to her I started ignoring her. You know why? Because when things get hard I run away from them. As far as I can. It's not the first time I've done this to a friend and it might not be the last time.Therefor I think I'm a sucky person.


And just now I got off the phone with her, she wanted to know what was up. So I tried telling her, in my awkward way, what my issues were. And guess what? She invited me over, instead of getting mad at me.

How come I always think the worst of people?

I'm a painting pro!

So today was supposed to be another one just wasted away. But noooo! Everything changed when my mom called to tell me to bring something over to her flat. So I was all like "You kidding me?! Do I really have to cycle all the way over for that fucking thing?" And her answer was: "Well, you could just stay here and help us paint.. We have an extra brush" Well hooray... I was incredible cranky so not looking forward to painting walls the rest of the day. So I changed into some scruffy old clothes and got on my bike. I cycled so super fast I got there in like 10 minutes instead of the normal 20 minutes (:
So how did Miss Crankypants survive this day?

Headaches...

Lately I've been having incredibly bad headaches that don't seem to go away. Sometimes even a week in a row. It's so friggin' annoying! And taking some aspirin doesn't do the trick ): I'm not a big fan of taking pills anyway, so I don't want to take to many of those nasty things. I think I might need glasses or something? Because I've been squinting with my eyes a lot, especially when I'm using my laptop. Sometimes I realize my nose is almost rubbing the screen, that's how close I get to it. I'm pretty sure that is the reason, because I feel the pain coming from my neck. Also, once I have a headache I should NEVER bend over, because my headache gets 10 times worse and I feel super dizzy :P So that is really weird.

Hooray for today!

So I woke up around 11.30 a.m. OOPS! I was supposed to meet my friend at 1 p.m. so I didn't have much time for shower, getting dressed, make-up and breakfast. So I skipped the shower (there was always tonight!) and I didn't have time for breakfast either. So I got dressed quickly, did my morning facial routine, make-up and hair and ran out the door. What did I do today?

Update.

So after I closed my laptop I made my lunch. After lunch I vacuumed around the house and I did my nails. After diner I went with my mom to her new flat, where she will be moving into soon. I helped her out with getting shit done, so she can start painting this weekend.

After lunch I just had a lot more energy. I took some snapshots of what happened the rest of the day, I don't see the point in telling a whole story when you can't see an image with it.

Just another one of those days..

You know, those days where you feel like doing so much and end up doing nothing. My plans for today were:

Get out of bed early (not exactly?)
Have breakfast (I forgot..)
Go for a half hour walk (By myself? Are you crazy?!)
Vacuuming the house (Screw that, let someone else do it!)
Call the company for information about my application letter (...)
Have lunch (Allrighty then.. Breakfast lunch is all I'm used to these days)
Do some laundry (Really? Why do I even think about doing that?!)

Instead.. I sit on the couch and do nothing. Why? Because I can't get myself to do anything.

Negative vs Positive

When 9 out of 10 times you think negative thoughts, you barely notice you're dragging yourself down. When in your eyes everything you do is either not special on exciting life gets boring and just a drag.
And every time something goes wrong or things don't go the way they were supposed to you think it's because of you. Yes, at that point you actually believe you are worthless. And the positive things that happen to you are barely noticeable. What to do?