Love, gimme love...

Long time no posting here.
About the last post... I had a little talk with my friend and for a while it has all been good so I guess I could try to talk to her about things more (: *yay*

Anyways.. a lot has happened the past few weeks!
At the moment my mom has moved out of our house and my dad moved back in. Why? Yeah I don't know either. The only part I do get is that my dad wanted to spend more time with us than he has been able to for the past years. Pretty logical right? Anyway, this means that there will be a lot of changes going on in my house and it might get a little overwhelming for me. But I'll manage ;)

I'm still not sure how I feel about it all though... On one hand there will be a lot of positive changes around the house, on the other hand me and my dad are pretty much the same. And yeah.. that leads to a lot of tension sometimes. But I just have to see where it all leads and try to talk to my dad about it as much as I can.

Also, I was supposed to start running. To have something to start my day with, to have more exercise and to make me feel a little happier. I even wrote down a whole list of things that would motivate me to keep going. But I had a problem... I am too scared to do it by myself. In my head I think I will look like a fool and that I can't do it. So I asked someone to come along with me... Unfortunately she had to cancel because she had something important to do. Secretly I think that even if she went with me I still wouldn't have dared to start running. I still would have felt really stupid and awkward. But I really, really want to start running!! Especially 'cause I want to lose 33 pounds.. that won't happen while sitting on your ass now will it? I have lots and lots of things to change about myself...

Well that is pretty much it for today.