I'm just so tired...

Love, gimme love...

Sunday, bloody Sunday.

I totally wanted to tell you about the fun night I had last night. But right now I have a little best friend troubles.
Unfortunately ): I think the both of us don't dare to tell each other how we feel about certain things... So at the moment, at least for me, frustrations have piled up and instead of talking to her I started ignoring her. You know why? Because when things get hard I run away from them. As far as I can. It's not the first time I've done this to a friend and it might not be the last time.Therefor I think I'm a sucky person.


And just now I got off the phone with her, she wanted to know what was up. So I tried telling her, in my awkward way, what my issues were. And guess what? She invited me over, instead of getting mad at me.

How come I always think the worst of people?

Just another one of those days..

You know, those days where you feel like doing so much and end up doing nothing. My plans for today were:

Get out of bed early (not exactly?)
Have breakfast (I forgot..)
Go for a half hour walk (By myself? Are you crazy?!)
Vacuuming the house (Screw that, let someone else do it!)
Call the company for information about my application letter (...)
Have lunch (Allrighty then.. Breakfast lunch is all I'm used to these days)
Do some laundry (Really? Why do I even think about doing that?!)

Instead.. I sit on the couch and do nothing. Why? Because I can't get myself to do anything.