Sunday, bloody Sunday.

I totally wanted to tell you about the fun night I had last night. But right now I have a little best friend troubles.
Unfortunately ): I think the both of us don't dare to tell each other how we feel about certain things... So at the moment, at least for me, frustrations have piled up and instead of talking to her I started ignoring her. You know why? Because when things get hard I run away from them. As far as I can. It's not the first time I've done this to a friend and it might not be the last time.Therefor I think I'm a sucky person.


And just now I got off the phone with her, she wanted to know what was up. So I tried telling her, in my awkward way, what my issues were. And guess what? She invited me over, instead of getting mad at me.

How come I always think the worst of people?

Negative vs Positive

When 9 out of 10 times you think negative thoughts, you barely notice you're dragging yourself down. When in your eyes everything you do is either not special on exciting life gets boring and just a drag.
And every time something goes wrong or things don't go the way they were supposed to you think it's because of you. Yes, at that point you actually believe you are worthless. And the positive things that happen to you are barely noticeable. What to do?